It’s always the same struggle when it comes to weight and size. Forever comparing ourselves and going on endless diets. Or going on the ‘no more junk food’ and more healthy eating before your week holiday off to Spain.
It’s taken me to the age of 24 years old to realise, I’m never going to be a size 8. I’m going to be a mid size girl and that’s what I’ll always be. I was given the bigger bum and bigger thighs from my parents, and it’s never going to change. I’m always going to smaller on the top than the bottom. I might be able to fit in a size 12 top, but size 14 jeans. But, I’m ok with that
I’m fed up of going out with friends and repeatedly going round in my head – I’m going to be that ‘bigger’ friend. I’ve had enough on thinking that a skin tight leopard print midi dress would look good on me, but to realise it looks absolutely awful. I’m bored of going on those healthy diets to help shift off the couple of pounds before holiday. I’ve done enough sobbing about my insecurities.
Heres what I am going to start doing :
- Dress for my actual shape and size.
- Start accepting what size I am, and that’s ok.
- Finding my style, so I enjoy my size a whole lot more.
- Stop worrying about how I look compared to others, as long as I feel good ~ that’s good enough.
- Reminding myself that every girl has stretch marks, cellulite and rolls – whatever size they are.
- Smock dresses really suit my size and are the most comfiest/easiest outfits ever.
- Want to wear black? Go for it. Add a little colour? Do it.
- Explore with more styles of dresses and invest in wrap skirts.
- A simple tee and jeans is totally ok for a dress down day.
- Not everyday I have to feel top notch.
Although all of this sounds great, it’s still flipping difficult to budge the negatives and change them for a positive. I mean sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and wonder what my younger 16 year old self would think of me now. Looking back, I use to think I was ‘fat’ but I was actually only a size 8/10. Size 8 was being lucky, size 10 was more likely. I’m bigger now and I would never use the harsh word – fat on myself or anyone.
What’s making it a lot more easier to accept my size is what’s rolling around on social media right now. I’ve ditched following all the inspiring women who are half my size for their style inspiration. I’ve actually started following women who are more my size and it’s bringing me so much more of a positive outlook. Their positivity is reeling into my mind and world and it’s a hell lot easier. Getting rid of those women who are a lot smaller than me, and have the perfect Instagram life – may be down to jealousy. However, I’m still feeling those jealously feelings over the women who are more mid size. But the big difference is – it’s a positive jealously instead of negative.
So here’s to being mid size, and being totally ok with that.
If you are looking for a positive Instagram account for any mid-size women then you need to follow Mid Size Collective over on there. It’s full of inspiring women who are all within the average size range, 10-18. You’ll find some amazing accounts and it’s also just inspiring to see the account pop up on my feed. It’s also inspired me to create my own Instagram account from Petite women to Plus Size. You can find it by clicking here.
So here’s to ditching the insecurities and making a change for yourself.
To the being body positive and accepting who you are and you’re size.
Accepting that you like food, and diets are just a hell hole.