Hello cheeka’s. Happy Sunday for all of you hanging, or having a melt down the fact that it’s Monday tomorrow. I hate weekends when you’ve got so much planned, it’s good on the sense your busy and you’ve got something to look forward to. However it makes your weekend fly past and before you know it – it’s another weekend over and done with.
I’m certainly having one of them Sundays, where everything is going wrong and I hate everything about myself and the world. I just want to ignore the world for the day, and that’s what my plan is for the rest of this afternoon/evening. Sometimes having some ‘me’ time and chilling behind closed doors is what you need. The reason I’m feeling like this, proballllllllly doesn’t help that all I’ve done is eat, eat, and eat. I hate it when I’m feeling so self conscious about myself, and so unhappy – because you should love your body. Although that probably won’t stop myself when Lee asks if I want to go to the shop before we head round his tonight. We always go to the shop for some choccy or sweets on a Sunday, and tonight I will probably ignore the fact that I’m feeling like this currently.
So today, before I headed out with Lee for lunch I was getting myself ready and I took notice of my legs. I thought my legs looked terrible, I took note of my hair – that it was really flat, dark and boring. I noticed my face shape, I didn’t like that neither. I felt pale – I hate feeling pale, I couldn’t put anymore bronzer on than I already had. I also thought about my arms, but I knew I’d keep my jacket on. What the hell was wrong with me? Being so judgement on myself, if I don’t love myself then what will I do? Only a few days ago, I was feeling confident and happy with myself, now I’ve just turned on myself. There’s nothing worse than going out, and trying to act happy when your so unhappy with yourself. Today I wanted to go out and take outfit photo’s, but I just couldn’t justify going out and standing in front of the lens and acting like I love myself.
Any how, tomorrow I’ll probably wake up with a different view on myself, but we all go through these blips in your life. Instead of focusing on what you hate about yourself, tell yourself what you love. For example, I love my hair – because my hair was so damaged before and it’s finally got healthy. I love my skin, I’ve been extremely lucky with my skin.
Tomorrow is my morning getting back into exercise, and watching what I eat a whole lot more. I’m going to make this Christmas my time to change my appearance to give myself a happier life. I’m back to starting a food diary too, which always helps and I’ll be sure to share it with you all.
Love yourself, your beautiful.
What do you love about yourself?